If your life is a movie, are you the main character?
The first time someone asked me that, I stopped dead in my tracks. I immediately pictured all the main characters in my world and I was NOT one of them. As a recovering co-dependent, make everyone else’s life work for them person, I was definitely an extra in the Emie Locke movie. What were the scripts I memorized and could recite in my sleep that kept me as extra in my own story? Everyone’s are different. Here’s a few of mine:
- I am here to make you happy.
- I’m waiting for someone to care for me the same way I care for them. I’m waiting for someone to give me permission to rest, to take care of myself. Not gonna happen as a co-dependent person who consistently chose relationships in which I was the rescuer.
- Taking care of myself is selfish. And being selfish is terrible.
- My needs, dreams, thoughts are not as important as yours.
- Even if I wanted to be the main character . . . . too many people need me to help them. Too many people would be hurt or angry if I stopped playing the rescuer role or the extra role.
There were many stories within my script that hindered me from living. Rewriting the script was hard. And some of it is still in process. But in this one glorious life, I don’t want to get to the end and wish I had done some living as the main character.
So I got brave. I am determined to shift the stories, find new scripts, get help, live!
Take 555. Let’s rewrite the script and do some living as the main character of our story. It’s never too late. And there are a multitude of resources to help you tune into your authentic self, heal the hurt that keeps you in painful scripts, and take steps forward. Don’t be afraid to reach out and look within.
Love to all of you on your journey today.